decisions, decisions, decisions.....

this week i had to make a decision whether or not i would be going back to school in the fall. money is an issue and i don't want to take out any more loans. i figure the longer you owe money the longer  you can't do anything fun--in other words i have to have  a good paying job all the time. or live with my parents.

all summer long i have been wondering how i was supposed to pay for school. even though i have a good job i had bills from last semester, car repairs, and i had a couple of trips that i was going on. all i don't have enough for school and i don't forsee any more money coming in than what i had already planned on. now, thats not to say that God can't bring in the money, because i know he can. if he wants me to go to school this year and finish he's going to have to supply the money.

i really wanted to finish school this year. i only have one year left and i'm done. i knew that i probably wasn't going to be able to go back but i had been fighting it all summer. i had my life planned out for the next 3 years and that's exactly how it was going to go.

you would think that i would learn from previous experiences that God is in control of your life. not me. well i didn't and God really got a hold of me this week and pretty much said: you're not going to be able to go to school this semester.

after a while i finally realized that my best option was to sit out and work for a year. i don't think i'll be able to graduate from maranatha because all the classes that i need are only offered every two years.

so the plan for now is (it's always subject to change): sit out a year, work ( i still don't know where), find a cheaper college with a major closest to mine and try to finish up in a  year or year and a half.

my options for where i might be for the next year are:
maine
virginia
california
or
anyplace.

it was really hard for me but i think i've made the right decision. i also would love it if you prayed for me as i try to figure out what exactly God has for me :)